Insomnia has come to visit. I hate it when that happens. I tend to lay awake at night and my husband tends to get up early. So between us we get 1 nights sleep. Not enough for 2 people.
Even our son is in on it. We allowed him to have red velvet cake on Saturday. Not a good idea. Anyone familiar with how red food coloring affects children will be able to come close to knowing how our Sunday went.
We took our 4 year old on a 2 mile hike. He NEVER got tired. Didn't even fall asleep until about 10pm (bedtime is usually at 7).
So I feel like a walking zombie. Emotional and grumpy, no creativity and no patience.
Ironic that this song was going through my head last night...
lyrics:
"Who Needs Sleep?"
BARENAKED LADIES
Now I lay me down not to sleep
I just get tangled in the sheets
I swim in sweat three inches deep
I just lay back and claim defeat
Chapter read and lesson learned
I turned the lights off while she burned
So while she's three hundred degrees
I throw the sheets off and I freeze
Lids down, I count sheep
I count heartbeats
The only thing that counts is
that I won't sleep
I countdown, I look around
Who needs sleep?
well you're never gonna get it
Who needs sleep?
tell me what's that for
Who needs sleep?
be happy with what you're getting
There's a guy who's been awake
since the Second World War
My hands are locked up tight in fists
My mind is racing, filled with lists
of things to do and things I've done
Another sleepless night's begun
Lids down, I count sheep
I count heartbeats
The only thing that counts is
that I won't sleep
I countdown, I look around
Who needs sleep?
well you're never gonna get it
Who needs sleep?
tell me what's that for
Who needs sleep?
be happy with what you're getting
There's a guy who's been awake
since the Second World War
Who needs sleep?
well you're never gonna get it
Who needs sleep?
tell me what's that for
Who needs sleep?
be happy with what you're getting
There's a guy who's been awake
since the Second World War
There's so much joy in life,
so many pleasures all around
But the pleasure of insomnia
is one I've never found
With all life has to offer,
there's so much to be enjoyed
But the pleasures of insomnia
are ones I can't avoid
Lids down, I count sheep
I count heartbeats
The only thing that counts is
that I won't sleep
I countdown, I look around
Hala Hala Hala
Who needs sleep?
well you're never gonna get it
Who needs sleep?
tell me what's that for
Who needs sleep?
be happy with what you're getting
There's a guy who's been awake
since the Second World War
[Repeat]
Monday, May 5, 2008
Saturday, May 3, 2008
Priorities
After a week filled with a sick child, a horse that reacted to vaccines, family to visit with and various other odds and ends that have taken up my time and emotional resources, blogging has been put on the back burner for a few days. I plan to be back on Monday!
Friday, May 2, 2008
Defining
How do you define yourself?
I am a Christian.
I am a wife.
I am a mother.
I am a horse owner.
What I do isn't who I am. But, who I am shows itself in what I do.
For 27 years I have been riding and training horses and teaching riding lessons. It's been off and on, but my passion has always been there. 6 years ago I purchased a weanling (9 month old - just weaned) horse. I raised him and trained him. And, when we moved cross country from KY to WA I brought him with me.
When I talk with new acquaintances and they ask me what I do, my horse comes up 99% of the time. Part of how I define myself is through horses.
Now, for many reasons, I have sold my horse. He is going to the home of my choosing, but still he is going.
How do I define myself? I love being a wife and mother. And I wish that that would fill me up completely. But, there is a hole opening up within me. How do I fill it? Who do I become?
I have a inkling that I will still stay involved with horses somehow. But not at the level that ownership requires.
I am a firm believer that everyone needs something that feeds their soul. Horses have been that for me. When I'm in a bad mood my husband sends me to the barn and I usually come back much happier.
What will feed my soul now?
I am a Christian.
I am a wife.
I am a mother.
What I do isn't who I am. But, who I am shows itself in what I do.
For 27 years I have been riding and training horses and teaching riding lessons. It's been off and on, but my passion has always been there. 6 years ago I purchased a weanling (9 month old - just weaned) horse. I raised him and trained him. And, when we moved cross country from KY to WA I brought him with me.
When I talk with new acquaintances and they ask me what I do, my horse comes up 99% of the time. Part of how I define myself is through horses.
Now, for many reasons, I have sold my horse. He is going to the home of my choosing, but still he is going.
How do I define myself? I love being a wife and mother. And I wish that that would fill me up completely. But, there is a hole opening up within me. How do I fill it? Who do I become?
I have a inkling that I will still stay involved with horses somehow. But not at the level that ownership requires.
I am a firm believer that everyone needs something that feeds their soul. Horses have been that for me. When I'm in a bad mood my husband sends me to the barn and I usually come back much happier.
What will feed my soul now?
Thursday, May 1, 2008
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