I am a Christian.
I am a wife.
I am a mother.
What I do isn't who I am. But, who I am shows itself in what I do.
For 27 years I have been riding and training horses and teaching riding lessons. It's been off and on, but my passion has always been there. 6 years ago I purchased a weanling (9 month old - just weaned) horse. I raised him and trained him. And, when we moved cross country from KY to WA I brought him with me.
When I talk with new acquaintances and they ask me what I do, my horse comes up 99% of the time. Part of how I define myself is through horses.
Now, for many reasons, I have sold my horse. He is going to the home of my choosing, but still he is going.
How do I define myself? I love being a wife and mother. And I wish that that would fill me up completely. But, there is a hole opening up within me. How do I fill it? Who do I become?
I have a inkling that I will still stay involved with horses somehow. But not at the level that ownership requires.
I am a firm believer that everyone needs something that feeds their soul. Horses have been that for me. When I'm in a bad mood my husband sends me to the barn and I usually come back much happier.
What will feed my soul now?
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