Flying Solo

Today is my first day with both kids by myself. My husband returned to work this morning after three weeks off for the adoption. His company was wonderful about letting him have time off and it was much appreciated by me.

I'll be honest. I have spent the last three weeks week afraid of him going back to work. I knew the day would come that I had the responsibility of both kids alone. No back-up for me to take a nap or someone there to hold a crying baby.

Along with sole care-taking responsibility I also had to get Brian to school and home again this morning. That can (and over the last week has been) tricky with Mera's schedule.

But I am proud to say that it has been an easy day. The schedule has all worked out and Mera has been rather easy. I almost think that I have this mothering thing figured out.

But then I laugh at myself knowing that tomorrow could be he**.

Thank you to all those who have asked about our sleep. Mera is on a baby antacid and is doing much, much better. We aren't up all night any longer, but we do still have to hold her upright after a feeding. During the day it is usually about an hour and I try to get away with half an hour at night (just so I can go back to bed). She is sleeping 3-4 hours at a stretch. More specifically, her schedule is on a 3-4 hour cycle. So last night she was up at 1, but I didn't get back to sleep until about 2:30 and up again at 5.

I keep reminding myself that this will pass. We waited so long for her. This is just a little bump in the parenting road. I won't even remember it when I am watching her graduate college, get married or have her first baby. There is so much more ahead. This is nothing. I'll sleep when she gets older and doesn't need me to be there so much. Then, I will miss these days.